Dream;

Last night I had the worst and best dream at the same time. 

I had a dream Braden came home, and it felt sooo real to me. 

Like he called me from his phone and said he's home & i rushed over there. 

We spent the whole day together & the next morning I got a good morning text. 

It all felt so real. :( I woke up and just started balling. 

No one really understands like what i'm going through. I was talking to this kid about it and he's like your such a baby, your too obsessed. 

?? It doesn't help when someone says that to you, it just made me cry even more. 

I think i'm a pretty strong person to be doing this. And hey, yeah maybe ill cry along the way just because i miss the boy i love. I don't think it makes me a baby, or obsessed. 

It just frustrated when they don't know nor understand. 

I don't want him to come home because that would cause problems with his family and everything. 

Is it bad to say I wish he was here, cuddling with me? 

But i know he's there and needs to be there. God needs him more than me. And that's so selfish of me to think like that. 

I guess i'm just a little emotional but it's Christmas time. So i have an excuse ha :) 

At least he's just gone for two years and not forever! 

I love this boy more than anyone else.